I don't want to be forgotten

My world just changed a while ago

It’s me who didn’t realized that

Because I was lost in the midway

Between to be forgotten and to be accepted

But I don’t want to be forgotten

I want to be memory

Memory that never fades

Memory that hurt more than anything

Memory that reminds that scar

Everything is memory after all

No no it’s not a revenge

I only wish she won’t forget me

Every new love she makes

Every new heart she joins

She has to search me on that

It will remind of me

It has to remind of me

It would make me happy

I would laugh

Everything is happiness after all

No no I am not cruel

One who doesn’t seek other's happiness

I am not selfish either

I just want to be part of her story

Story that beholds her, like always

Name of mine tag along with hers

A memory she keeps it

A memory she remembers everyday

Well sometime when she is busy

She has to remember

She was the one who wrote

"I love you but can’t have you

I will never forget you"

With that smiley emoji on her last chat

Even that smiley doesn’t bring smile on my face

I thought she was crying that time

But she never mentioned that

She didn’t say anything

I guess she didn’t want to see me hurt

But she left our story without a reason

Did she want to see me hurt that time??

Did she have no other options left??

Did she??

I can only think and guess

She was the one who have answers of every question

I have right now

But she won’t tell me

And I don’t want to hear either

I am afraid of her answer

She might be afraid of my question as well

I want to be her hard past

I don’t want to be erased after all

This is all I want and wish

Am I the one who is change??

After that

After everything it happened

I told you

My world just changed a while ago

It’s the world who didn’t realized that

I don’t want to be forgotten

Aku